I'm a failure and I can't blame anyone but myself.

So yes I'm in uni. Yes I got the grades. Yes I can officially have a fresh start, so why is it now I feel so low. Coming to uni was meant to be my new start, but maybe I'm just not ready for this. I miss my old life, no matter how complicated and screwed up it was, I want it back.

I'm violently kicking myself for feeling like this. Isn't this what I wanted? Didn't I choose a uni out of Wolverhampton to escape it? So why is it I want it back so much?
So yeah, I've had quite a few druken experiences here, but it is just not the same. Sitting here alone has made me realise this, I seriously wish to be back within old company.

I miss him. I miss her. I miss them.